A year ago this week I started experiencing pain in my knees, by the end of the week the pain had spread to my entire body and I could barely move. A month later, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Fibromyalgia is best described as a widespread chronic pain disorder. It causes pain and weakness in the muscles, fatigue and cognitive dysfunction. Nobody knows what causes it and there are few effective treatments for it. A year ago, I was working as a veterinary nurse. Two months later, I was forced to quit as my body just couldn’t handle the physical aspects of the job. I had to re-examine what to do with my life based on what my body was capable of. Needless to say, it was a tough period of my life.
I joined a couple of online support groups but I soon became tired of them as I felt that most members were trying to out do each other with how sick they were and how little they could do. I didn’t want to dwell on my condition and my limitations. I wanted to know what I could do, not what I couldn’t do. I stopped researching about fibro and quit going to my rheumatologist (he wasn’t much help anyway). I got my current job and tried to get on with my life. It worked to a certain degree. I gained back most of my mobility and learned to cope with the other crap that comes with fibro.
My life has changed dramatically from the life I had a year ago. I try not to dwell on the things I have lost but instead focus on what I have gained. I am debating going back to my rheumatologist to see if there is anything he can do for the persistent pain in my legs. If I can get that pain under control then maybe I can exercise more and be able to do more of the things I want to do.